I made the decision to start over. I’ve read many stories of people who start over. It may be a new career, new relationship, new anything. But I’ve always been that person that was afraid to fail, to change and to do something differently.
Ever realize how the people who seem truly happy are the ones with the COURAGE and GUTS to go after what they believe in? Well… I’m doing that right now. I’ve quit my job and I’m going back to school full time and I’m extremely excited about it. Here’s an overview of what got me to this point:
What finally changed…
Starting over may seem simple enough. But it does take a desire to really want to change your life. I was giving 150% to a corporation that systematically broke down my spirits and will to be an individual. Every day I allowed my creativity to be silenced, my individuality to be suffocated and sadly, I lost myself and who I was. I became entangled in buzz words, reports, numbers, and rankings. It stopped being about people and interactions and became about how much money could be made. I realized that my destiny did not include sending recaps and attending conference calls. The things that kept me coming to work with a smile (my employees, customers and friends) suddenly were no longer enough to offset the growing desire within to make a big change.
Now, I loved my job. I’m actually going to miss the people who I shared my days with, however there comes a point in life where you have to follow your dreams. Every day, my creative side was screaming at the top of its non existent lungs and begging to be let out. So even though the company that I had worked so hard for was the same, in contrast it seemed so different because I had grown so drastically.
So, you’ve come to your senses, now what?
Just because I finally recognized that I should be doing something with my life, didn’t mean that I had the courage to do something about it. After medication and a lot of consideration, it came to me that if I continued on the path I was on, I wouldn’t be much further along 4 years from now than I was 1 year ago. That revelation did not sit well with me.
Following your dream takes commitment and passion, and I could not do that while having commitment and passion to my job. One had to go. Either it was my future or the corporation’s future. I finally chose my future. After months of deliberation, I discovered that my dream will require all of my faculties and all of my focus and I can’t do that while devoting time to anything…
This is where I came up with the brilliant idea of quitting my job, giving up all of the luxuries that I’ve acquired over the years, and going BACK to school full time majoring in Computer Information Science and minoring in Information Systems Security.
“You’re crazy… give it another year… try something different…”
If you’ve ever experienced change, you too know that people will try to keep you where you are, and they will not have the vision to understand what you are doing. Don’t take advice from miserable people, because misery loves company. I’m not frivolously quitting my job, I HAVE A PLAN! It may seem that I’m giving up a lot and making changes without thought, but I’ve saved $$, paid off all of my credit cards, paid off my car and have the means to devote 2+ years following my dreams with 150% vigor.
Don’t be afraid to change your life! It takes courage to do anything and I am cashing in all of my timid chips in exchange for bold, courage chips!
I’m doing this for me…
I’ve spent my entire life making others happy, whether it was my parents, my bosses, my customers, my company… I’ve always had rules of my life, I had to follow a schedule, wear a uniform, and devote my soul to something that wasn’t in me. I’ve always felt as though I could be doing something more with my knowledge and experiences. I’ve always KNOWN that I could do better, I just didn’t have the courage or the means to do better.
Now, I can… and I will attack my dreams with so much vigor that I may scare myself…
This journey will be all about my changes and experience. I will share a co-mingling of my personal experiences with my technical frustrations of learning how to be a computer programmer.